I guess I had better truly get used to what is happening to me or what has always been a part of me that I am now just allowing myself to see and utilize. It is really all hitting me way too fast. Maybe if I had to work at it harder it would be easier for me to accept instead of it all just "being" there.
My friend Lisa had once half jokingly told me that if I saw her deceased dog in the house to let her know so she would know he was around. I don't think either of us ever expected for what happened to happen.
Last night myself, Lisa and Todd my other friend and her fiance' were all sitting in the living room, ( I am staying with them for a short time) half watching but mostly listening to the Queen concert Todd had put on the T.V. and doing whatever we each were doing on our laptops.
Lisa got up and was busily making Todd dinner and getting her stuff ready for the next day and just busy stuff. She tends to move around with a lot of energy. My cat Princess has given up trying to follow her around. Just as Lisa finally sat back down, I saw a dark something dash past the little table that holds a lamp, the junk drawer and everyone's keys. At first I thought it was my other cat who is all black because it was darker and so solid, and I naturally looked up quickly from my laptop. No cat. So then I knew I had seen a spirit. Then somehow I just knew it was here for Lisa.
I went into my room and consulted my pendulum. Confirmed that the spirit was Lisa's dog and that Lisa would be able to communicate with him through her pendulum. So I went and got her pendulum and brought it to her in the living room and told her George was here and that she would be able to talk with him if she used her pendulum.
Of course she was shocked. It really hit her like I had slapped her. I felt bad. She went into her bedroom for a while and when she came back out she was crying. Now I felt horrible! I certainly did not want her to cry. She told us that she did talk with him and she asked him a few questions in front of us and he responded. She did let me know that she felt a calm and a peace now about his death and that he is ok now and that the tears were good tears but I still felt bad.
I think we were both in shock. It is much easier for me to help Michael and Spirit cross over earthbounds and waywards than it is for me to give my friends messages. God only knows what will happen if it ever goes beyond just my friends. It all still stems from my need to believe in myself and know that this is all real. I have a job or jobs to do and that is why I have been given these gifts. I don't see myself as special and I am not sure if I will ever use any of this to earn money although it would be silly of me not to if the chance ever came about.
Right now however, I am feeling a bit cut off from the rest of my friends. I don't feel normal anymore. I actually feel like I am living two lives. The "normal" one with work and daily living stuff and then this paranormal one. I need to find a way to get the paranormal feeling normal.
Hoping that the Heaven and Earth Center can help with that.
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