I need to once and for all accept this

 

So this is me today my friends. Yesterday was a busy day for me. Two crossings, both unexpected.

 

I am getting to the point now where I don't need the ritual of the sage and opening doors to help waywards and earthbounds go home. I know that this is possible as during my reading, there is a mother and daughter team who simply use their energy, vibrations and faith to help cross those in need.

 

There are occasions when they do need more than just that but usually, it is as simple as connecting with the spirit and either convincing them it is time or giving them the opportunity.

 

The second spirit actually sought me out. I saw her come through the front door and immediately picked up my pendulum to confirm that the shadow I saw was indeed a spirit. She had come because she knew I could help her and she wanted to go home. Funny thing is, she didn't need me really, she just needed to look for the light and head on in.

 

I guess she needed me to let her know that she could do it on her own. I didn't do much, just let her know that she had the ability to go home herself and that her grandmother was waiting for her on the other side.

 

I did get a quick flash of Spirit coming to walk her through and then a quick flash of Sarah (found out that is her name) and her grandmother thanking me.

 

I do feel badly for Lisa. I think all that energy got to her. I also think she and I need to discuss the fact that we may be feeding off of each other. She is very empathic and takes on other peoples emotions.

 

I am so glad tonight is Spirit Circle night at Heaven and Earth. I need it badly, I need to connect with those who are in the same situation that I am, have more experience and can both give me advice and also calm me.

No sage needed

 

 

A thought occurred to me as Todd, Lisa and I were driving home from the beach the night we helped Lisa's grandparent's cross, although I had been reciting my protection prayer for most of the day, I had forgotten to have Lisa and Todd recite it. I knew Lisa and I were now beacons for any wayward or earthbound spirit out there.

 

Yesterday I was very emotional, teary eyed, anxious and irrationally angry. I thought I was crashing from the push of energy from the night before.

 

Today as I sat in the living room reading Wayward Spirits & Earthbound Souls by Anson V. Goth,

I had this feeling of being watched and I felt it was coming from the same space where I had seen George the boxer. I immediately consulted my pendulum and Archangel Michael confirmed that there was another spirit in the house. I asked if the spirit was related to any of the three of us and Michael answered no. I asked if he (for some reason I just knew it was a older male spirit) had followed us home and he said yes.

 

I was a bit confused because Michael was with me all day yesterday and usually that means either we have a job to do or I need to be very aware of something. I did ask Michael yesterday if he was there because we had a job to do that day and he said no. My daughter was having issues so I asked if was there to help with that and he said yes.

 

So I asked my usual questions, did the spirit know I could help and Michael said no, would I have to convince him and Michael said yes. As I was asking my questions, I was receiving information about this spirit. I knew it was an older man whose first name was Raymond, I could sense he had been dead for a long time. I also was able to discern that he had been a cattle farmer, had a wife named Ellen and two kids, one boy and one girl and that he did not die of natural causes.

I quieted myself and looked over to Raymond and quietly told him that I could help him find his family. I could feel his dispare. That is the only word for it. He didn't believe me. I told him I knew where Ellen was, and all he had to do was go to the light. I could actually hear him scoff at me and say "light, smite".

 

Suddenly I saw Ellen from the waist up. Although she was pleasant looking her features were not beautiful. She was however the most beautiful woman I ever saw and it was because of the love I could feel pouring from her. She didn't say anything she just shot that huge wave of love at her husband.

 

I could tell Raymond was afraid to believe that she was really there. There was a soft yellow and white glow behind her, the same light that I see when spirits cross. I softly told him she was really there and she was waiting for him. It was time to go. Spirit arrived and it startled Raymond a bit seeing he was in his usual wolf form but I let Raymond know it was OK and to go with Spirit because Spirit would show him how to get to Ellen and his family. Aside from the little dog that is fastest I have seen a wayward cross.

 

I learned that the protection prayer is to help protect against angry earthbounds, wayward and worse. I also learned there is a difference between waywards and earthbounds. Waywards are lost. They missed their window of opportunity and many don't or wont believe they are dead. Earthbounds have bypassed the crossing as they have or had what they feel is unfinished business.

 

I had not realized that I had gone into a trance like state until after Raymond crossed. As I came back to myself I realized what had happened. We had crossed a wayward. No sage, no open doors it just happened! I found out from Michael we would not always need sage and open doors.

 

 

Apparently I am getting stronger as is my connection with my co-workers. Be well Raymond, enjoy your family, you waited a long time.

 

 

 

 

 



Farewell to bubble gum?



 

It's been a busy week at the White/Sanford house. First a visit from George the boxer and Lisa releasing him. Tonight Lisa helped send her grandparents' home.

 

Her grandparents have stayed here on earth to watch over her. Now that she is finally happy and settled, they were ready to go home and be with the loved ones who went before them.

 

Again, as with the little dog, it was surprisingly easy. But then, they were ready to go and I didn't have to convince them.

 

Lisa told them it was O.K. to go, she was happy and that Todd would take good care of her. They both placed a hand on either side of Spirit's shoulders and started to walk away.

 

The grandmother looked back and asked me to make sure Lisa knew she loved her. The grandfather looked back rather sternly and told me to tell Todd that if he hurt his little girl he would come back and haunt him and he wouldn't like it. Then they were gone.

 

Poor Todd didn't get any flashing lights or shadows. Lisa and I however are exhausted. What seems so anticlimactic in the physical world was very climatic in the spiritual. Two people got to go home tonight, knowing that the little girl they forfeited their own eternal happiness or postponed their next journeys for is finally safe, happy, loved and cherished. What a joyous occasion.

 

I feel honored that God chose met as one of his workers for this particular work. I watch the paranormal shows now with a whole new eye if I watch them at all. I don't want to ghost hunt anymore. I have enough of them coming to me now. I also know, if I go looking, I may not like what I find.

 

It is only a matter of time before things get more serious. But for now, I will go to sleep, with the peaceful feeling, knowing that the next time Lisa smells bubble gum(her grandfather always had bubble gum for her and sometimes she smells it still) when no one is there, her grandfather is visiting her from heaven(or where ever spirits go when they cross).

I think I had better get used to this...

I guess I had better truly get used to what is happening to me or what has always been a part of me that I am now just allowing myself to see and utilize. It is really all hitting me way too fast. Maybe if I had to work at it harder it would be easier for me to accept instead of it all just "being" there.

My friend Lisa had once half jokingly told me that if I saw her deceased dog in the house to let her know so she would know he was around. I don't think either of us ever expected for what happened to happen.

Last night myself, Lisa and Todd my other friend and her fiance' were all sitting in the living room, ( I am staying with them for a short time) half watching but mostly listening to the Queen concert Todd had put on the T.V. and doing whatever we each were doing on our laptops.

Lisa got up and was busily making Todd dinner and getting her stuff ready for the next day and just busy stuff. She tends to move around with a lot of energy. My cat Princess has given up trying to follow her around. Just as Lisa finally sat back down, I saw a dark something dash past the little table that holds a lamp, the junk drawer and everyone's keys. At first I thought it was my other cat who is all black because it was darker and so solid, and I naturally looked up quickly from my laptop. No cat. So then I knew I had seen a spirit. Then somehow I just knew it was here for Lisa.

I went into my room and consulted my pendulum. Confirmed that the spirit was Lisa's dog and that Lisa would be able to communicate with him through her pendulum. So I went and got her pendulum and brought it to her in the living room and told her George was here and that she would be able to talk with him if she used her pendulum.

Of course she was shocked. It really hit her like I had slapped her. I felt bad. She went into her bedroom for a while and when she came back out she was crying. Now I felt horrible! I certainly did not want her to cry. She told us that she did talk with him and she asked him a few questions in front of us and he responded. She did let me know that she felt a calm and a peace now about his death and that he is ok now and that the tears were good tears but I still felt bad.

I think we were both in shock. It is much easier for me to help Michael and Spirit cross over earthbounds and waywards than it is for me to give my friends messages. God only knows what will happen if it ever goes beyond just my friends. It all still stems from my need to believe in myself and know that this is all real. I have a job or jobs to do and that is why I have been given these gifts. I don't see myself as special and I am not sure if I will ever use any of this to earn money although it would be silly of me not to if the chance ever came about.

Right now however, I am feeling a bit cut off from the rest of my friends. I don't feel normal anymore. I actually feel like I am living two lives. The "normal" one with work and daily living stuff and then this paranormal one. I need to find a way to get the paranormal feeling normal.

Hoping that the Heaven and Earth Center can help with that.



I think I have found my spiritual home

I have been searching since I reopened myself for human spiritual advisers and others who are like me. For some reason it seemed difficult to find. It was easy to find people who could talk with me about chakras, and connecting with my higher self as well as my spirit guides. What I couldn't find were people who I could talk to about my ability to communicate with spirits and my job of crossing earth bound and wayward spirits.

 

I did find a great online community on Google that is led by a woman who is doing these metaphysical exercises to flex mystical muscles and grow psycic ablitity. She is also starting a monthly book club and I absolutely love the first book she has suggested. It is right up my ally. However this is all online and while it is all good reinforcement and learning, it is not a group that I can find someone to sit with and really talk with about what is happening to and with me.

 

 

Last night I went to Heaven and Earth Spiritual Center right here in Dunedin for a weekly Spirit Circle. They hold lots of classes there and the Spirit Circle is one of them where one learns to strengthen the psychic mind and can share experiences with each other.

 

 

I felt really comfortable there. The center is run by a mother and daughter who are both psychic.  The night started out with a guided meditation to connect with our spirit guide, or for one of our spirit guides if a person has more than one like me.

 

Archangel Michael was with me last night. So that is who I connected with. In our meditation we were instructed to sit and have a conversation with our spirit guide. Michael told me that I was powerful and that I just needed to believe in myself. I almost cried because that is the hardest thing for me do is believe in myself.

 

Then we went over the chakras and why it is so important to keep them balanced if you are going to do psychic work. Then she showed us how to see auras. I couldn't see the aura of the woman I was working with but somehow I knew what her colors were. Cheryl, the woman running the meeting confirmed that the colors I knew were there were the same that she was seeing including the thin purple outline all around the woman's body. There was another woman there who is like me and didn't actually see the aura but knew what the colors were.

 

During the night, I felt Spirit join me to my left. His energy took up so much room I actually leaned to the right up against the wall and the man sitting to my left brushed his right arm as if he felt something on it.

 

Spirit and Michael are my "co-workers" if you will. I call them The Team. It is they who really cross over the earth bounds, I am really just the tool that gives the earth bounds the opportunity and the tool that gives Spirit and Michael the ability to connect with the spirit after I have convinced them it is time to go.

 

 

I did get to talk with Cheryl after the meeting about how fast all of this is happening to me and what it is I feel I am mean to do. She explained a lot to me and actually sent me a message from Michael, much like the one I already got that night. They will never give me more than they think I can handle and that I am doing just fine, relax and stop worrying so much.

 

I am looking forward to going back next week and learning more and connecting more with people who are like me.

New Job

So last night as I lay here on my friends couch watching T.V. and half falling asleep, I could have sworn that a big moth flew at me. This is the second time I saw something that wasn't there fly at me. I chalked it up my seeing things.

Then I saw this little thing scoot across the door to my friends bedroom as if it was in the bedroom going from one side of the door to the other. I instantly knew it was an animal and it bounce bounded like a little dog. I remember thinking to myself if that was his little chihuahua and that we had disturbed it somehow when he gave me it's pet carrier to move my cats. 

Again I kind of dismissed it and went back to sleep. This morning I woke up thinking about this experience. So, like I confirm everything I turned to my pendulum.

I asked it if I had truly seen a ghost of an animal last night and it gave a yes answer. I then asked a series of questions about this little animal spirit to determine if my feeling that it was a little male dog was correct and that it was looking for it's owner. 

The way the pendulum was acting I could tell I was not talking with Archangel Faith so I asked if she was speaking to me through the pendulum and I got a negative answer. Then I asked if it was Archangel Michael and I got a yes answer. I also had a strong sense of Spirit around me to the point where I almost asked if it was Spirit talking to me through the pendulum. (Remember, Spirit is the spirit guide that first came to me in the form of my ex-husbands wolf whose name was Spirit and who Rev. Michelle seems to think is my pleiadian brother.)

It was then that I knew that this was the next earth bound spirit I was supposed to help the team ( I have come to think of Michael and Spirit as the crossing team) cross this little dog so he could be connected to his owner.

First let me say I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN ANIMALS GO TO HEAVEN or where ever souls go when the physical body dies.

So I have my next job. I told my friend about it. I don't think he believes in this stuff but supports me and even said it was ok if I was freaky :)

I guess I should start to carry my shell and sage with me. Stay tuned and I will let you know how it goes when I come back the next time prepared. This little guy should be easy. I was told that I only had to open three portals for him to scoot through. Just hope Spirit doesn't scare him (wink)

Recognized a direct communication from my spirit guide as such and not a panic attack

This morning as I laid in bed doing the half asleep, half awake thing I had this "thing"happen to me.

Let me preface this blog by saying that I have been training myself to tap into my spirit guides first thing in the morning, prepare myself for the day emotionally and empathically, and put up my protective bubble.

This morning as I laid in bed doing all of this I felt my chest tighten. My first thought was "ugh panic attack so early"? Then the feeling changed and it actually felt like something was being shoved into my chest. Very strange feeling that I am not sure how to describe. Then an intense warmth flowed up from the bottom of my rib cage up and out the top of my head. I thought to myself "could this be something spiritual and not physical?"

I pulled out my pendulum, asked if I was talking with Archangel Faith as she is usually the one who speaks to me through the pendulum and it was. I asked her if what I had felt came from them (meaning God and my spirit guides) and she answered yes. I asked if it was in preparation for something and she answered yes. I asked if it had anything to do with wayward or earthbound spirits and she answered no. Then it occurred to me that perhaps I was being given something to help me with my move away from Venice and to help with getting my daughter settled so I asked and she answered yes. 

Getting myself and my daughter settled has been tough. I am dealing with an ex roommate who is very unpredictable so I am really looking forward to being out by this weekend. My daughter wants to move with her friend who is dealing with a very controlling mother. This morning my roommate is back to freaking out, blaming me for things that I have nothing to do with, such as the amount of cleaning she has to do etc. So now I understand why I was given what I perceive as a gift of strength and inner peace to help me deal with all of this and make clear decisions.

So, why am I blogging about this experience? Well, I wanted to share with you who follow me, and with myself that I am finally learning to recognize when I am receiving a message, sign or gift. It makes me wonder how many times in the past did they try and send me any of these and I chalked it up to a panic attack.

Serenity and direction found again

So good news and bad news friends. Bad news first, and it really isn't bad news just delayed news, due to finances I need to put off my past life regression. Disappointing yes but ok.

Good news. I am MUCH better today. I had joined this Google community called Mystic Tribe which did two things. It lead me to an event I am going to next Monday to meet up with spiritual and pyschic people woohoo! But that is not the best part. The best part is that the woman who runs the Google Community puts up these little challenges and tasks. One I joined was Mysticgym which is a section in her community where those who join will find metaphyscial exercises to flex our mystical muscles. 

The first exercise is Three Signs in Three Days.  The task was to write down your question to your spirit guides that you would like a sign for. The purpose of this exercise is to receive an answer from Spirit by way of Signs.

So my question was, of course, Please show me who is to be one of my spiritual teachers/mentors on this planet. Of course I was looking for the one to teach me about crossing waywards and dealing with demons.


Well I got my signs. I have actually been getting them all along but wasn't listening to them. The book I am reading about the mother daughter team is about their story, learning how to cross waywards themselves with the help of their spirit guides.

The woman I called on the phone told me my best bet was to work with my spirit guides but she also poo poo'd me when I told her about the job I feel I was meant to do.

Last night I met up with a dear friend and told him of my bad day yesterday from not properly grounding myself after helping Spirit (Spirit is actually the name of the wolf my ex husband I had that Rev. Michelle at Enchanted Spirits told me during a reading was not really a wolf but a fellow pleiadian who took the shape of a wolf to interact with me) show the two waywards the way home.

This morning he took me for a hearty breakfast and then a wonderful motorcyle ride along the beach and down my favorite road. During that ride I saw two signs outside of two churches. One said, Open your bible and listen to the author. The second simply said, We need to talk. God.

I had an " I should of had a V8" moment! Of course I need to work with my spirit guides and archangels. How silly of me to sit here and say God gave me a job then try and look to a human being to show me how to do it.

I also had this "knowing" that I need to do this on my own with my spirit guides so that I can build confidence in myself and my abilities otherwise I will always be doubtful. So, instead of looking for a teacher to teach me how to cross waywards, (um which I have already sucessfully done once with Spirit duh) I need to find a teacher to show me the path to myself, my higher self. Like I said before, those I have in abundance.

So I got two messages today. Trust in myself and my Spirit Guides to lead me in my job and stop running from those who are offering to help me expand my psychic abilities and tap into my higher power.

Lesson Learned

I guess this wouldn't really be a blog if I only wrote about the fun exciting stuff would it. So, now you get to share with me a lesson learned.

Yes what happened last night was amazing. And it was easy. Or so it seemed at the time.

I am reading a book about a mother and daughter team who help wayward and earthbound spirits go home and she is constantly talking about grounding herself after they do this. Usually she will eat a hearty meal, have a glass of wine, commune with nature.

I had a microwave meal and blogged. Apparently not grounding enough. I also went online to see if I could find someone who knows more about this than me to talk to. I did call one woman who seemed promising but it did not turn out well.

I had anxiety dreams last night which I have not had in a while and today I have been on edge, shakey, irritable and very emotional.

I have been working with my Archangels today and I meditated a bit.

I couldn't figure out what was wrong and so I consulted my pendulum. It was the answer I needed.

Although I now know what I did wrong and know how to fix it, it still doesn't feel great.

I put up this picture because right now I do feel alone. Yes I have wonderful friends who are so supportive of me. But I yearn for a teacher, a guide, someone who has been through this to talk to.
I have my spirit guides and they help a lot but I have questions they can't answer.

So when will I find my teacher and mentor?

And so it begins

Tonight two go home.

The last couple of days I have found myself home alone and feeling an urgent call to help send the two wayward/earthbound spirits that resided in my house home.

This is not something I take lightly. What if I tried to do this and did it wrong and they went to the wrong place or I caused them pain? Was I even ready to take on something like this. These are not some exaggerated ghosts from T.V. who enjoy haunting a house and scaring the crap out of people. These are not some bad spirits or demons. Both of these earthbound spirits were someones relative and friend. People cared about these spirits and loved them. These are souls stuck on this plain because they felt they had a job to do. I do not know enough about them to know what that job was or even if it existed in truth or in their minds when they died and that is why they didn't go to the light at the time of their death.

What I did know, was that I wasn't going to do this alone. I wasn't even going to be the one to cross them. My job was to give them the opportunity. I had been told that it would be the Archangel Faith and Spirit who lead them home.

So, the first day I was home alone, I got up and opened the doors and windows, and went looking for something to light my sage with. I could not find a lighter or a pack of matches so I nixed the whole thing.

Today, I found myself home alone again. It has been a productive day for me. I got some writings done I needed to get done and even communicated with a new friend. I also found my pendulum that had been lost since last night. I "knew" the general area as to where it was but each time I looked I couldn't find it. I finally found it, and yes it was in that general area but hidden way behind a cloth bag I used to store some sheets. How it got there I do not know.  So, I am happily chatting with a friend, doing my work and I feel Spirit. 

As a reminder, Spirit is the name of the wolf that came to me when I met my ex husband. His picture is up above. Rev. Michelle told me that Spirit is not really a wolf but a pleiadian brother who used the form of a wolf to be with me. I looked for a picture that would depict a wolf leading them home but I couldn't find one that looked right. I couldn't even find one that really looked like Spirit. So I called my friend who is in this picture with Spirit for permission to use this picture and she gave it. 

Finally I pulled out my pendulum and asked if  Spirit was trying to communicate with me. I got a yes answer. I asked if this was the day I was supposed to help send the two spirits home. Archangel Faith said yes. [As a side note, I always confirm which guide is speaking to me through my pendulum. It is usually Faith]. 

So I opened the windows and the doors. I pulled up a prayer I had heard on a show about another group of paranormal investigators who work to send spirits home and clean houses of bad energy. I said my prayer as I looked for a lighter to light my sage. No lighter to be found. I asked Faith if there was a lighter in the house and she said no. I asked if there were matches in the house and she said no. I looked at the electric stove and asked if the sage would light if I used that. She said yes. I told her I was scared. I asked if Spirit would be the one leading them home and she said yes. I asked if I would know what to say as I did this and she said yes.

I used the stove to light the sage and put it in this piece of a shell that I found the day my friends and I took Archangel Michael to the beach. I found that I did know what to say. I didn't have to trick them. I didn't have to promise them anything. I simply told them that it was time to go home now. That their loved ones were waiting for them on the other side of the light and that their job here was done. I told them the ones they staid to protect were safe now.  I walked around the house using my tiny bit of sage, this broken shell and this little feather from a bird I had found to smudge the house as I spoke to the spirits.

I could feel Spirit and I knew what I was supposed to say. I instructed them to each lay a hand on one side of his shoulders and let him lead them home towards the light. I was standing in front of a window but what I saw was not the back yard, but a shadow of Spirit and two people on either side of him. They had their backs to me and I could tell their was a road of sorts but other than that all I could see was color. The two spirits hesitated but then they each put a hand on one of his shoulders and began to walk away from me towards this light. 

This was not a brilliant light like I expected. I was not blinded. It was yellow and soft and big and loving. One of the spirits stopped and looked back but I kept telling them it was ok, it was time and then the one looking back turned again and the vision was gone.

I was very emotional and my chest was tight. I sat back down and picked up my pendulum to ask Faith if they had gone home and was the house free of earthbound spirits. She said yes.  I asked if the vision I saw of Spirit leading them home was a true vision and she said yes.

As I was doing this, I had this vision of Spirit walking the perimeter of the house on the inside, sending his love out as a shield. I asked if this was a true vision and she said yes.

There is a different feel in the house now. More peaceful. These spirits were not dark. The one that was dark, Spirit got rid of on his own.  Maybe it is my own inner peace knowing that I help two people reconnect with the loved ones waiting for them on the other side.

This part of my job isn't so scary anymore. I know I am only supposed to be the worker bee and not the chief. That is the job of Spirit and my guides. What does scare me is the time that will come when I do have to deal with a darker entity. Will I be able to overcome my own fear in order to be the tool they need to use to take care of this entity and protect those on this planet?

Scary but exciting step on my journey

Yesterday I was chatting with a dear friend of mine online. She and connected as we found we were traveling parallel paths in a different area of our lives.

I was telling her about what had been happening with me spiritually and with my ability to communicate with spirits. I told her about my guides and protectors and about how I was now on a quest to find a teacher and mentor who could help me grow and become this soldier that I feel I am supposed to be.

Unfortunately, in this aspect of our lives, she and I are not on similar paths but as a teacher herself, she did have some wonderful links for me to look up people she trusted and learned from. She also suggested I contact a woman she knew well who owns a metaphysical shop where my friend used to teach and do readings to see if perhaps she would refer me to someone regarding doing a past life regression.

Come to find out that this woman, Judie, has a reader who does past life regressions and I have an appointment with her in four days for mine!

I am both excited and anxious. This is my chance to hopefully gain some knowledge of who I really am and where I came from. Am I truly pleiadian? I know that Archangel Faith tells me that I am through my pendulum but sometimes I am stubborn and pig headed and need more proof. Is this really the first incarnation for me on this planet? That part really confuses me as I had always thought that I was reincarnated from my great grandmother. I adore anything Victorian and always thought perhaps I lived during that time. So now, hopefully, I will be able to make sense of things. I will let you all know how it went.

My Pendulum

As I stated in an earlier post, a wonderful friend of mine Lisa, brought me to a shop called Enchanted Spirits to see if I could find my pendulum there.  Let me preface all of this by saying, I am a huge purple person and I fully expected to connect to a pendulum that was purple or had purple in it if I connected at all.

Well I did not end up with a purple pendulum. I remember walking into the room where the crystals and pendulums where with Lisa and the woman who was helping us. There was indeed a purple one there and I did notice it but then there was this simple pendulum with white stones. It called to me and I reached out to take it from it's hanger. The woman told me that the main stone was a luminescence stone and the 6 other stones that adorned the chain were moon stones. The second I heard luminescence and moon stone I knew this was my pendulum.

The woman behind the counter instructed me to hold it by the top stone. I did so and it started to vibrate. All three of us knew I had found my pendulum. I asked it to show me clear signs for yes and no. Then I asked it if it should come home with me. I got a very enthusiastic yes.

I feel very connected to my pendulum. It talks to me. No I don't hear a voice lol. But just as the spirits put "knowings" or pictures in my head, my pendulum does the same thing. I have found that Archangel Faith uses my pendulum the most to communicate with me.

Now here is something for you Lisa, my friend and spiritual sister. Do you remember asking if my pendulum has a name? Do you remember telling me that you felt a male energy coming from it that day as we walked along the beach? Well I found out today that it was Archangel Michael who wanted to swim in the water that day. That is why you felt that male energy.

Through my pendulum, Archangel Faith has told me that I indeed am a pleiadian and that I am here to help earthbound spirits both light and dark go home. She also told me something that does scare me, something I think I have known for a long time and why I have blocked this out for so long. I am here to help rid this place of dark energy and demons. This is a strong statement and a question I have asked my pendulum three times now with different wording each time but always got the same answer.

During my reading, Rev. Michelle made a statement that I had some very powerful protectors. I asked Faith if the reason they are all protecting me is because I am here to do this sometimes dark work and she said yes via my pendulum. Again, even as I write this, I am scared. 

However, I do know that in this universe and in any universe, you cannot have light without dark, happiness without sadness, peace without war.  My faith in God has always been strong. For me, the image of my God does not look like a Michael Angelo painting, Jesus does not look like many of the statues and paintings that are hung in churches and museums. To me, God looks like a regular dad. I know that he is awesome but I do not idolize him. By that I mean, I don't see him in those colorful and often gilded statues and paintings. He is more down to earth, more in touch with us and this planet. I see God in nature, and I feel him in the sea creatures. 

If this life I am living now, is to be one of service to this earth than I am ready. I have de-cluttered my life. I have left a job that made me ill, blocked my mind and oppressed my spirit. I left behind an apartment and many of my material things, taking only that which meant something to me. This is not how I live. I am orderly, I have a decent paying job, an apartment, things in my house. For years, my life has been chaos even though I had those things. I could never seem to get out from under that dark cloud. I should be freaking out right now, as I have told my friends. I am living on unemployment, renting a converted garage from a friend and job hunting (job just found today yippee) but these last few months have been the most calm months of my life.

I am scared of these dark spirits and it is even hard for me to type the word demon. But I am ready to learn to be a soldier for God and to protect those that I love now, will come to love later and perhaps will never even know.  I wonder to myself as I type these words "who am I"? Well I am simply Tammy, and now I know my purpose.

My Reading with the Reverend Michelle Glass at Enchanted Spirits Dunedin, FL

I guess the saying "birds of a feather, flock together" is true. I never ceases to amaze me how often I find that when I open up to my friends about my spirituality and ability, that they open up about theirs even when I expect that friend to scoff at what I was saying.

Case in point, Lisa, my friend who introduced me to the Enchanted Spirits shop in Dunedin Florida was the last person I would have ever thought would have her own abilities never mind want to help me with mine. She told me how she, her fiance and his daughter all went to this shop and she found her pendulum there. She was intent on bringing me to see if I could find my own pendulum and perhaps finding some guidance on this journey I have finally found strength to go on.

Everyone was so helpful there and I did find my pendulum. I also found Michelle Glass. I had an instant ease and connection with her. When I spoke of my experiences and my fears she knew instantly what I was talking about and was able to relate them to experiences of her own. I made an appointment for a reading with her for the next time I would be in town.

Two weeks seemed like such a long time to wait. The wait was made longer by events that happened to me during those two weeks. I had what I call a sighting. A dark shape about the size of a bat came straight at my head while I was sitting up in bed one night. It was so vivid and so real that I actually started to beat the side of my head that it should have rammed into. But there was nothing there. I tore my bed apart looking for whatever it was that flew at me and found nothing. I then began to wonder about what it really was because surely even if it did not slam into me, given the size of the thing, I should have heard it's wings or even felt it as it went by.

Next, I had another visitation from yet another deceased mother of a friend. She had a message for her grieving son and my friends deceased son also took this opportunity to send his father his own message. I was very anxious about delivering this message. My friend's wound was still so raw from the loss of his mother and I don't think one ever truly recovers from the loss of a child. Even though I have known about my ability to communicate with those who are passed, I never trusted it and I feared it. But, I had made the commitment to open myself up and to try and start trusting and believing. 

This is a strong woman and she was going to get her son this message no matter what. I also could feel the desperation of the son spirit wanting to ease his father's pain. So, I called my friends girlfriend and spoke with her about it. She agreed that he needed to hear it and would have him call me. For the rest of the day the mother nagged at me and picked at me and I actually yelled out at one point " I will tell him as soon as he calls me! Sheesh!"

He did call, he understood the message, it was validated by the use of termonology she would use such as "knock it off". The son also validated the message by having me ask his father about a ring that he had of his. I knew that I had helped a family heal and it felt good. I couldn't wait to tell all of this to Michelle at my reading.

The day of the reading came and I had my list of things I wanted to ask her and confirm with her. She was able to confirm them all. She was spot on with the new direction my life was taking and not just with the spirits. 

She gave me a list of my spirit guides starting with the Archangel Michael. She then stated that his counterpart Archangel Faith was also one of my guides and protectors. She stated that was not a common thing. She told me that 
St. Joseph, Budda, Kuan Yin, Mother Mary, and Jophiel were also my guides and protectors. She told me that I was also protected by the white light of Christ. By now the reading was starting to get intense and both of us had goose flesh. She told me that I would be heavily protected on my journey and in my work.

She then channeled my deceased father who let me know he was proud of me and that I should continue on the path that I was on and that I would have continued good health while on that path.

She asked me if I ever considered that I might be a star child. I have always considered myself a moon child as I was born under the sign of Cancer at 11 at night and I was the very definition of the sign of Cancer but I never thought I might be a star child. She stated that she thought that this was my first incarnation on this planet and that she thought I was Pleiadian. She explained to me about the cluster of stars that made up the eye of Taurus and the nature of these beings. She also said something that made me sit up and pay attention because I have never told anyone ever, that I have never felt comfortable here, here on this earth, unless I am deep in the woods or in the ocean. She said that would explain why I have never felt fully comfortable on this planet. I explained to her about how I would get very quiet and almost trance like when deep in the wood or at the beach. That I didn't seem to connect with the "usual suspect" of animals or mythical creatures. I connect to whales, dolphins and gnomes. It seems dolphins were sent here by the Pleiadians to help this planet.

Then the most amazing thing happened. She told me that someone else was coming through. This part is so awesome that I can't remember word for word what was said but she started to channel Spirit, my ex husbands deceased Timber Wolf. This channeling was so strong, he was in the room with us. She even told me right where he was. I could tell he was in the room because I had that familiar feeling I always had with him. Spirit and I had this love hate relationship. I had been around a wolf before via a friend who had rescued one. Polly had that earthy, wise, native american feel to her. Spirit didn't. It always felt like he knew exactly what I was thinking. It was almost like those scenes in kung fu movies where the student get's ticked off because the Master always is one step ahead, already knowing what the student is thinking. I did feel a connection with Spirit. I did feel safe around him even when he got his wolf on. But there just wasn't something right. 

Michelle told me that Spirit wasn't really a wolf. He was a brother Pleiadian here on this earth in a wolf's body. She told me he was my biggest protector and she gave me a message from him. It was very emotional for both Michelle and myself. 

I know I am on the right path. I know why God gave me this gift and I know what I am supposed to do with it. It is so strange how normal this all feels to me when I don't let my intellect get in the way and try and tell me who freaky this is. I think I have always known what I was supposed to do here, I have always been drawn to it. I believe I am here to help wayward and earthbound spirits go home. More than that, I am here to help those who are connected to those spirits, help them go home. I am here to help those who have passed give that one last message to their loved ones. I am at peace finally and yet still confused.

So now, my next task is to learn as much as I can, find someone or a group of someone's to help me learn and develop. There are two spirits in the house I live in now that need to go home. I know I am supposed to help them but I was fearful that I wasn't strong or knowledgeable enough to do it. Then Michelle gave me such a simple answer and task. I only have to open all the windows, burn sage and ask Spirit and Archangel Michael to take them home.

I'll let you all know how that goes.

So in my last post I promised to tell how my spirit guides have pushed me into accepting my gifts and explore them so here it is.

It happened one weekend at a friends house. This friend has her own spiritual connection to mother earth and her roommate has psychic abilities. On this particular weekend my friends roommate was having her first church meeting at the house. Suddenly I was confronted by a massive wave of energies slamming into me as the church members entered the house. I could feel myself begin to panic but stayed in the living room with them. I did feel connected to one member. The mother of my friends roommate. However, when they started a mediation, I had to leave the livingroom and I hid in my friends bedroom. Eventually I had to leave the house entirely and I cried all the way home.

I did find the courage to speak to my friends roommate about this all and she truly helped me. The next time I was confronted with all this energy I was able to ask her for help and she grounded me. It was very encouraging to be able to stay in the room with these people and the massive amounts of energy they were projecting.

I had what I call a visitation that day from my friends mother who has passed. I did not see her or hear her voice. I simply had this "knowing" that her spirit was not in the house as she usually was ( I could feel her each time I visited). I knew she was at my friends brother's house to comfort him and that she wanted me to tell my friend that she needed to call her brother because something was wrong. It turned out that my friends niece was to have surgery. The same surgery my friends daughter just had. She was able to support and comfort her brother.

It was that positive experience that convinced me that it was time to stop being afraid and to open up to my abilities and explore this world that I have hidden from and shut out for most of my life.

I spoke of all of this with two dear friends of mine Todd and Lisa. Lisa had just obtained her pendulum from this shop nearby and we made a date for she and I to go and see if I would connect with a pendulum myself.

I did connect with a pendulum almost immediately connect with one which now has become my oracle. I also connected with a medium there and made a date to have a reading. The reading was awesome and I am still processing it as it was just two days ago.

But for now my friends, I need to skeedattle. My next post will be about my reading and my spirit guides.

Good night

 

 

It is summer of 2013 and I find that I am now brave enough to allow myself to experience whatever this is that is in me, or that I am able to do, or more specifically, I am called to do.

 

I guess I have always had this "other" sense. When I was younger it was mostly geared towards animals. All kinds. I had this wonderful back yard as a child, part marsh with a tiny pond that had a small island in the middle with a tree on it, and part true forest with moss, ferns and salamanders. My father had put up a tire swing for me on one of the large tress in the forest section of our yard. It was a wonderful tree whose base had a great root system that was above ground. It was easy to imagine gnomes and fairies living there. I would spend hours swinging on that tire singing whatever songs came into my head. One day as I was swinging and singing, I noticed a white spider with black eyes pop out of one of the root systems and sit there as if it was listening to me sing. I stopped singing and it went back in it's tunnel. I started singing again and it came back out, taking up the same position it was in before. I stopped singing and again it went back inside. I started singing again and out it came. We played this game for a couple of hours. I would sing and it would listen and whenver I stopped it would go back into it's home.

 

As I grew older, I began to see spirits even though at the time I was not aware that I was indeed seeing spirits. Then as a teenager, I had a very bad experience that made me shut things down, two more times I tried to experiment with this "ability" of mine, only to be thrown right back into that same bad situation. So, I shut it all down. The only thing I couldn't shut out was  how other peoples energy effected me.

 

Now, 33 years later, I am at a point in my life where my spirit guides will no longer allow me to shut it all out. So, with the help of my guides, my friends, and some wonderful people at a metaphysical shop, I am on my journey to enlightenment. It was suggested that I blog about this journey and so I will.

 

Next I will write about how I was pushed into taking this journey by my guides, let you in on who they are and this odd but wonderful relationship I have with my pendulum, which my first spiritual advisor has said is actually my oracle.

 

But for now, good night.