Crisis of Faith

So I know it has been a while since I have posted. Sorry about that. I had a slight crisis of faith in all of this, my abilities, my purpose, why me? Why such a purpose? Is this real or simply the need to believe in something?

You know it's quite ironic really how fast this is all happening. I have always said patience is not one of my virtues but boy I sure would like for some of this to slow down!

The house had a scare a bit ago. We all knew that at some point I would be dealing with demons but I thought I had until December before I encountered my first one. Guess I forgot my own warning that the future is not concrete. This one was very minor but still they are nothing to play around with. My fear was not for me or even Todd but for Lisa due to who she is and was in past lives which makes her very desirable to the undesirables.

The demon was dispatched fairly quickly but it sure did put a scare into Lisa. It also put a scare into me. See, I feel very protective of Lisa now that I fully know who she was and is. I felt like my own special kind of demon since the real one came here or was lead here because of me. I am not scared for myself. Cautious yes, scared no. I know how protected I am.

This was a huge scare for me and I instantly threw up those blocks and walls I have had up for so many years. I stopped paying attention to any signs I was getting, I stopped acknowledging the emotions of others and let me tell you what a huge mistake that was. It led to a major depression for me.

During that time, I received a call from one of the people that my purpose has helped. It was wonderful to hear how the experience we had together had helped to put him back on the path he had been on before he was cursed with the poor dark spirit sent to haunt him. It was great to hear that he was touching base with people he thought he had lost and that he was growing his own abilities again. The best part though was when he acknowledged that he had a part in helping that spirit, the one he wished nothing but bad on, heal and cross over.

Well I have worked through my crisis and I am back. More knowledgable, with more direction and more determination. Last weekend I was away as was Todd and Lisa was here alone, well not really alone. She had some spirit visitors that she neglected to tell me and Todd about.

So, the other night, after Todd and Lisa went out, I took down my blocks and walls and pulled out my trusty Archangel Michael pendulum. Said the prayer so that only those for my highest good could communicate to me through it and started my usual ritual of finding out who was here.

It turned out to be all what I have dubbed white spirits and I mean REALLY white. There was even a nun which kind of startled me. I figured, heck a nun should have the express bus straight to the other side right? Well apparently she didn't know she had died and missed her window of opportunity.

As I watched them parade passed me, I had a conversation with St. Michael about all that had transpired and of my crisis of faith and Lisa's fears.

I have had many awesome and incredible experiences since letting my abilities run free but this sort of takes the cake. Suddenly Mary was there. Yes THE Mary. She had a message for Lisa. Lisa is so protected and she knows that Mary is her main protector. She gave me some instructions for Lisa and then walked into the light with an infant spirit.

I can't think of a better welcome home than that.